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To consider one self a writer, one must write. That’s what the Ten Minute Blog (TMB) is about: whatever is on my mind at the moment, about a topic, for 10 minutes.
It was a crazy packed road week in which I slept in 4 different beds – and happily back in my own last night. As much as I love being out in the world and as much as I want to get out when I have been here a little too long, I miss the Club when I am on the road. It’s here that I safely make sense of everything I collect out there. That I reflect. On this Sunday morning, I find myself letting my mind run free. Until I realize I am looking for an explanation. I need some answers. Let me explain…
I am really happy with what I have accomplished in 2021, especially when contrasted against the circus act I was in most of 2020. My emotional intelligence is at an all-time high. I am confident I am moving in the right direction. The summary of all of my experiences, of the work I have done, of the results I have generated and of the relationships I have cultivated confirm for me that this feeling is appropriate.
Additionally, this year, I have been able to really hone in on identifying how my values show up in what I chose to do, in how I act, how I think, and most importantly, how I feel. I have been able to unequivocally declare what is important to me based on my value system.
This week, while visiting the Capgemini New York office, I saw our values posted on a wall, like I have at so many corporations before. I love this stuff. I was called to pic, prose and post.
And while the post only stayed on my Instagram story feed for 24 hours, the topic stayed with me all week.
Because in a place where trust is also a value, I am observing that my ability to trust and be trusted has been challenged more than usual.
So I wonder. Is it “normal” that almost 6 months in, I feel this way? Are there others who have had challenging experiences in building trust at work? Where a few individuals can make or break the trust building process?
I realize: I naturally give trust. It’s where the intimacy I so deeply seek comes from. It’s one of the key tools I use to connect. Tell me a secret, I’ll never tell.
I give trust until it’s broken. Luckily, it doesn’t happen often, but it does. When it happens at work, and when it happens now, in a moment in time when I feel more ready than ever to grow and learn and lead, I feel handicapped by my lack of experience at responding to my trust being broken. To my number one value being poked at.
So that’s what I want to know. Here is where I seek answers. How have others managed? Where are the stories of individuals who value trust, and have successfully navigated authentically moving forward from a broken place, at work?